Rant on!

October 30, 2014

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suspecting is not-knowing   to stay suspecting is not-wanting-to-know  eve again   who does want to know   who wants to be “like God knowing good and evil”  but she already knows good  she wants to know evil though she can want that only if she has no idea what evil is or only a muddle-headed-middle-class one   say she thinks it would be gloriously wicked to sleep with lots of men   have   bib

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                                                                                                                           knowledge of them  and all of them will worship her as – what did miltons serpent say? – queen of the universe    to be kissed by one and then the other and then another still   to feel them come alive and collapse in her arms scream and faint   she doesnt imagine one plans to jerk an arm free and cut off her head as he is swooning away    is this why we  who are middle-muddled like eve  why we are so obsessed with Lust because we can both imagine /and imagine we can tame/ it    the other side of lust Greed  we dont have to imagine   It has tamed us we live in it no longer sin  the insurance of our freedom – 

                                          thy sons acclaim your glorious name by gory          

                                          by jingo by gee by gosh by gum

                                                                                         by god

naomi is about obsession how it takes one apart though jōji somehow puts himself back together without giving it up  the obsessed : what wonders!  reginald marsh never without a pad never not sketching in it  anaïs nin living her life by writing about each pretty petty petit bit of it  poets-I-know always moving sounds around in their mouths  always-even-eating shifting them around with the potatoes and spit

          can you teach yourself obsession   maybe start with small things  maybe it only applies to small things - looking at Little long and hard  ignoring distractions : gas in your colon blood in your loins the crickets in your ear the gadzook- great-big  balloon things blowing up your brain : generalizations philosophical questions theological arguments :  God   Life   Death   too big   too broad   too much   naomi is just right  - the god that lies between right and thigh or wave and offering in Leviticus 9:23   - the third day of the 9day life of a mosquito sucking a particular ear  drunk with pleasure shuddering    - the incomprehensible death by drowning of a frog choking on warm swamp-water  the plaything of what kind of cruelly humorous god

true philosophers cant be obsessed with Knowledge but (only) with certain ideas of how some things work   theologians – or Mystics! whatever they may wish to tell us – cant be obsessed with god when all they can see is the bright-colored Dust they have chipped off gods shell swims now in glitter around them hissing like insects  a Flea from gods beard carried by the wind  swept along the floor and under the hem of  teresa-sanchez/ s skirt      let eve become the mother of mankind by bedding six hundred men     she-teresa   . . . .

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