Uncle Albert has given up writing maximes. He no longer has the brain for it, he says. But this morning he brought me this one:
There are any
number of things we think we understand but do not: each other, for
example.
Addendum: That’s
my opinion, of course, and I could be wrong. But if I am right, wives
understand their husbands no better than husbands understand their wives;
voters understand politicians no better than politicians understand voters; the
oppressed understand their oppressors no better than their oppressors
understand them. Moreover, they are all making the same kinds of mistakes.
Mistakes, plural – only one of the mistakes is hubris.
“What do you
think?” he said.
“I don’t think it errs on the side
of political correctness,” I said.
“Oh,” he said. He sounded like he
wasn’t sure what I was saying.
“Well, I’m not
planning to publish it,” he said later.
“Good,” I said. Then, “I’m not
saying you’re wrong.”
“No,” Uncle Albert said.
I’m not saying he is wrong because I think he is right. Of course, this is my
opinion and I could be wrong, or it is my experience, which is limited:
I had a dream two nights ago. My
dead sister Moira was in it, but she may or may not have recognized me; she was
madder than Ophelia. My sister Hannah’s husband Ike was there, too, in a house
and on grounds whose architecture and plan kept changing. Now he was leaving
Moira and me alone; now he was telling us we needed to come in so we cold take
our medicines. And Roz, it felt like – and Hannah and Uncle Albert – were
hovering invisibly and what they were thinking was invisible, too. Everyone in
the dream was impenetrable. There were no clues I could discern to what any of
them was thinking. I was utterly confused from one fey minute to the next.
Like in real life.
I have just as much trouble reading
clues awake as asleep. Maybe I’m not paying good enough attention, but I don’t
think that’s it. I find others impenetrable in either state. At least in the
present I do. I may look back and think, “Oh that’s what he was thinking,
that’s what she meant?” But then I think: “Or was it?” In the now I
don’t know what to respond from one mad, elusive moment to the next. I live
from one to the other by simultaneously waiting and making wild guesses.
“Are you better
at understanding me than I am at understanding you?” I am asking Dr. Feight.
“Well,” he said, “I have more
information.”
03.10.21
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* See here.
Dramatis personae: Uncle Albert, who is everywhere. Click links to learn more about Moira, Hannah (and Ike), Roz, Dr. Feight.
Illustration: Ausonius at the Jellyfish Bar, June, somewhere between 335 and 2035. You know what he is thinking. Of course, you do.
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